I am

Fear, taking hold of its tactics
yet I ask the accompanying failures
Of what I’ve done
Or did not do
Decisions based on careful
Considerations, fear at
Primal certainty
Upholds every belief
Forgetting what dhould be
the sweat on my forehead
the pounding in my chest
Not because of love
But fear itself
the unmasked fatality
of oblivious encounters
planned to settle unto
the next lowest form of comfort
ease up the anxiety
escape this world of
decreasing maturity
fear, untangle for prosperity
deeply, i breathe in
soothing, it never seemed to be
oh fear, why am i so afraid
come out from your hiding
let’s settle this, you and i
i look straight to your eyes
there i saw, hidden imperfections
countless obviously
ashamed and proud to admit
my pen of proverbial controversy
spilling out my sins and weakness
i love her, i hate mankind
i am angry, i am negative
releasing what i no longer need
fear, i peel you slowly
for i am building a new me
i am love, i am joy, happiness
i am peace, compassion
and kindness
yes, i am a champion
i am weird
you don’t have to remind me
I am
everything good i strive to be
i’ll keep on growing
growing like a strong sturdy tree
for i am life
i am my own mistakes
and I
had never been
SO ALIVE.

July 07, 2014

For a little while

I never thought that at the peak
Peace is a plateau of greens
Serenity is an overwhelming wave
Giving soul to an arising analysis
I run with the wind
On this field of impeccable dreams
I can almost cry
Having experienced this
Profound joy
Connection that is so fluid
She stole the yellow morning rays
Perforated my world with light
If that isn’t enough
She befriended
The flowers that took the sun
Balance, is what
She brought into my life
I don’t know how
But, she did it
Her influence
Is something more
Something else, somehow
In return,
I’m passing on compassion
Kindness she showed me
Needs to be shared
The world needs more of her
I’m her catalyst
She’s my balance
She made me realize
We’re all here
To reach out
Forget about ourselves
There’s a wonderful connection
Waiting at the end
The fruits it will bear
Pass it on
Until, we’re all infected
Our world can never be perfect
At least we tried
In time, we will all realize
That compassion is more important
Than our premiered self acceptance
Once you do,
Trust me,
For a little while
You feel free.

June 6, 2014