Kill me at 3am

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Kill me at 3am
When i’m at my weakest
I promise
I will not move
Nor dare even breathe
I have already lost a heartbeat
waking up will just be
A grand confirmation
Nightmare after nightmare
That you- are
No longer mine

Tie my hands behind my back
This time, my words
Are forever shut
Words that are mere facts
Lost every evident feeling
The lack of soul
Exhausted emotions
Wondering when
The momentous exile
Of an ordinary heart will happen
Hope had rippled across
Back never back to my soul

Kill me before 4am
When i’m deeply dreaming
Sitting by the river bend
Wishing i can still
Walk with you
While holding your hand
A quite perfect ending
For I’ll never notice
The dagger inside my chest
Hold me while i’m dying
As you tear
All sense and meaning
Which i have not found
When i started loving you

Kill me at 3am
When everyone’s asleep
No one’s watching
No one’s listening
The whole world drunk
In their own clutter
Voices trembling, mumbling
Singing cries of the lonely
Apprehended and arrested
Weeping the hours
Like the rest of us
Fallen madly
In this chaotic tantrums
When you are expected
To be quiet
Stability is so seductive
We’re stuck in this
Endless chase of
Being numb versus feeling something

So, yes, kill me at 3am
You already have my heart
What more harm will it do
Now that i know
How long your forever lasts
Your words will never fit
A rightful apology
But then go ahead
By all means
Coz aren’t i just another memory
An imprint that can be easily erased
I thought i existed
When you were around
So kill me one more time
And be damn sure
It will be the last..

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